Quote of the Day - Part Two:

"How extraordinarily stupid it is to defend Christianity, how little knowledge of humanity it betrays, how it connives if only unconsciously with offence by making Christianity out to be some miserable object that in the end must be rescued by a defence. It is therefore certain and true that the person who first thought of defending Christianity is de facto a Judas No. 2; he too betrays with a kiss, except his treason is that of stupidity. To defend something is always to discredit it."
-Søren Kierkegaard

Quote of the Day:

"Worldly wisdom thinks that love is a relationship between man and man. Christianity teaches that love is a relationship between: man-God-man, that is, that God is the middle term."
-Søren Kierkegaard

"Horse With No Name" - America

Sometimes the road less taken is the higher one but that doesn't mean it isn't full of moments that will suck.

Quote of the Day:

"We know too much, and are convinced of too little. Our literature is a substitute for religion, and so is our religion."
-T. S. Eliot

Forever in Timed

Uncertainty is seemingly always certain,
regardless of how contrived
that may seem.
Beauty strives in originality
but is always seen in the redeemed
in how everything will be remade.

A good, good day to you
and a fair and beautiful night
as we all drift
as we glide
sliding along
on these fragile wings of hope.

The future is coming along
at a frightening pace
and it's hard to say hello
even at the best of times
because I feel
I'm lacking in grace
and I just want to cry.

The morning is coming
so it's the right time
to just dry your eyes
wiping away ever tear
and just forever
try to forget
just this fear.

Expectations inevitably arise
and fall
and believe as they will.
But to hope is precious
as it is fleeting
and so quick to flee
as we dance across our time.

Good morning

A beautiful song for what I deem to be a beautiful day.
Smile, we live today and tomorrow we will be swept up into God's presence...today is a gift and although my hypocrisy runs deep...the beauty of Love outshines our weakness.

Smile for today is but a beginning of so much more.

I am confused.

What else is new?

Unspoken Domain

I'm looking, looking for something.
Feeling for something new
hoping for something old.
Knowing I'm going
and when I'm going
I'll be gone
so far gone from here
that I'll never need to hear
or stop to feel
what it meant to be
standing in the shoes
not sure of where I fall
or where this expanse is becoming.

The fact I'm an adult is terrifying.
I was told this was to be mine
and I don't even know
know what that means anymore.

Was I born here for purpose?
Born here for reason?
This isn't the land of my fathers
for that is a place I don't even know of.
I'm hoping to hope
and praying for more
for all this is going to be
is leading to places I've never seen.

I'll follow
but never pretend
or act like I am the one to lead
because
this isn't my story,
it never was
nor could it be
for I was created
and born
made to inhabit
this space and time
and so I shall
until the call Home
and everything
is brought together
in one accord
and onto one knee.

Quote of the day Two:

"In the arena of logic, I fight unarmed."
-Red Mage

Plans are falling together with a freakish speed!

Now just for the job to happen, the funds to roll in and then I am off to tour some schools!

Holy crap Jesus...do you know what you are doing?

=)

I have bested the laws of Thermodynamics and have produced brownies! Now that physics have become my mere plaything I am departing upon a grand baking adventure for the ages! Excelsior!

God I hate being so...sentimental and holding on to everything...I just stumbled across some mementos my grandmother left me after she died...God it hurts so freaking bad.

"Limping through the world
there’s a knowing look or two
is it just the cripples here
who understand the truth?
Why is love so painful
why do we always lose
paving pathways for the lost
the bitter, and recluse?
He said “Love endures all things”
and it hurts to think it’s true
did it nail Him on a cross
did it crucify Him too?"
-Five Iron Frenzy, "Spartan"

I have entered the world of baking!

Huzzah!

Plus I'm listening to Queen too!

Woot!

I have such a very loose idea but an idea all of the same.

"The bravest thing I have is hope."

I'm hurting...intensely...I know You care...just please help me.

Please.

"They want you to be Jesus
They'll go down on one knee
But they'll want their money back
If you're alive at thirty-three
And you're turning tricks
With your crucifix
You're a star"

A Journey Through Your Mind and Soul

Being the king of this trash heap, I can get anything I see my eyes on.
I can win the dreams of impossibility but the one real, tangible, practical and necessarily unnecessary thing I cannot find.

I do not ask for much but much is given.
I simply speak and kings bow.
I stand and riches are handed.
But of the eternal?
Of the everlasting?
So often it is naught to be found in this.

What am I to become?
My hands are weak and my soul thirsts.
Where are you?
Where did you traverse?
On what plane must I travel to see you?

I can speak in alien tongues, sing the songs of elves and birds but still without You I lack.

Where is this fountain I seek?
Where is this intoxication of love?
Is it a myth or mere misconception of the fool?

I traverse this wasteland, I hunger and thirst while looking for You.
I have memorized thousands of lines that I recite by night as I wander by day.
The moon is my mistress, the stars my hand servants and the sun my adversary.

My body aches, not from the leagues I have traversed but from those yet to come.
Not the sacrifices I have made but that the absolute worst is yet to come.

I seek the face of one who has looked away, that no longer sees me as me but merely me as at caricature.

At some point things traversed to a point of no understanding and now we are both left with an ever increasing chasm between us.

I'm walking through this desert wasteland, not searching for water but chasing phantoms. I see the marks in the sand, the fire pits and the evidence that my quarry is in fact human or at least prefers to make me think of it as such.

Shades of the past, a spectrum of color and belittled hope.
What of this drought of hope?
Sincerity or lies to cleverly disguise what is fraught?

Oddness.

Quote of the Day:

"The problem with Christian culture is we think of love as a commodity. We use it like money. I used love like money, but love doesn't work like money. It is not a commodity. When we barter with it, we all lose. When the church does not love its enemies, it fuels their rage. It makes them hate us more."
-Donald Miller

Had a great afternoon and evening...however I am in increasing pain so my agitation levels are skyrocketing.

Quote of the Day:

"Wretchedness. The only thing that consoles us for out miseries is distraction, yet that is the greatest of our wretchednesses. Because that is what mainly prevents us from thinking about ourselves and leads us imperceptibly to damnation. Without it we should be bored, and boredom would force us to search for a firmer way out, but distraction entertains us and leads us imperceptibly to death."
-Blase Pascal

"Touch" - Delirious?

I, I really want to get to know you
I really want to get to show you how
How I really feel
And now, another page is turning
Another day is dawning here
For everyone to see

And I'm on my knees
'Cause I love you
And when you, touch my life
I've been born again
I am born again
And when you, touch my life
I've been born again
I am born again

I, I really want to get to know you
I really wish you'd show me how
The way it's meant to be
And please, deliver me from walking
Beyond the truth that called me here
I'm not ashamed today

And I'm on my knees
'Cause I love you
And when you, touch my life
I've been born again
I am born again
And when you, touch my life
I've been born again
I am born again

I've been torn again,
The curtain's been torn again

Bloodstains

I'm on the verge of insanity of a breakthrough?

The cross is on my mind...I can't forget it...I feel the splinters, smell the sweet sick taste of blood and know this my treason personified.

I've been in love with You my whole love, before I could breath I was destined to be hopelessly enamored in You, every breath has been leading me to this moment of exhausted recollection...while I contemplate this impossible and unbelievable love.

In ways...I just want to cut everything and everyone else out so I can spend eternity talking to you...being lost as my this broken soul attempts to commune in love.

I want to loose my life, loose this life, these falsehoods and feel the temporal peel back to let the eternal flow. I want to go to church and love You with others...I want to talk with others about this Love...this SOLE reason I exist.

Have You still called me to act a Shepard for the wayward?
Who am I that You called me to salvation?
Give me this grace...much less have hold me and carried me.
Oh Love, Love, Love...don't let this end.
Hold me through this cancer of the soul and give me strength.

Beloved, beautiful creator, speak to me and give me the strength to say no and just move forward, as hard as it is, take this please.


"Love so amazing, so divine,
Demands my soul, my life, my all.

To Christ, who won for sinners grace
By bitter grief and anguish sore,
Be praise from all the ransomed race
Forever and forevermore."