Song of Songs 6

“Who is this, arising like the dawn,
as fair as the moon,
as bright as the sun,
as majestic as an army with billowing banners?”
-Song of Songs 6:10

Why did I start reading this book?
This is really the absolute last thing in the world I really need or want to think about, consider or worry about...

I forgot how...er to the point the language is.
Poetic but very erotic.
I like poetry but not so much the eroticism...I'm twenty-four, a virgin, a still too young for this sort of thing.

That verse, I didn't pick it because of deep meaning, but because it was one of the few poetic passages without excessive and at times over the top sexual meaning.

Sexuality isn't bad.
I just don't want to deal with it.

Hugs, hand holding, getting coffee, walks in the park...all the sort of thing is as deeply romantic as I want to get.

Everything else is just a headache induing complication that I really am not sure is possible or capable of being sustained...humans are so fickle, so prone to evil and broken...

...but God chases after us, that to me is what makes the beauty of Jesus' sacrifice and resurrection so...insane.

Not only does He give blood to atone for our sin, cause the veil separating us from the Holy of Holies to be ripped down...He then proceeds to send Christians out to share love but doesn't wait for us to get it right...

He shows up in our lives, seemingly everywhere just whispering Love and Grace to our broken natures, our abilities to screw up...

Whereas we have religious leaders, parents, teachers, family and others willing to scream at us for messing up...Jesus whispers love. His Love is the unending hurricane of endless passion that refuses to let us alone.

The choice is all ours to make...but His passion and chase is unrelenting.
Something that I have trouble grasping but Love is Love.
Even in this book...

So many thoughts, incomplete hopes...wonders and wonder.