"Incandescent moon is shining
Just for you tonight
Shimmering a golden halo
Does it follow just beyond your sight?
Sigh
You're an angel
Wanting wings for flight
Tonight
Baby's breath in the waxing light
Glassy seas of blue
I will dream of you

Let's close our eyes till daylight comes
Baby's breath and chrysanthemums
So beaming blue these dreaming skies
In soundless sleep now close your eyes
Till daylight
Till daylight comes
Till daylight
Till daylight comes
Just close your eyes till daylight comes"

Psalm 60

"Have you rejected us, O God?
Will you no longer march with our armies?
Oh, please help us against our enemies,
for all human help is useless."
-Psalm 60:10-11

What are humans?
What help is our broken race?
Every breath is labored and it seems we are all merely a step away from utter destruction.

There is so much beauty in this life, despite the pain.
Despite all the pain I cause.
How can I be so...
Do you know the words I dare not whisper in the night?
Why?

This nature makes no sense.
Everything comes and goes...changes so quickly...

But thank you for life.
I worry I am walking alone and You come to me and whisper love and carry me in my intense pain.

With all the aches in my soul and body...the failings of heart and life...You have been so faithful, You have loved me...how can I ever say anything but I love You?

Even though I have never truly loved you...I want to...I want to learn how...teach me, keep me near...please do not leave me to my sin...but wash me, renew me and give me wings to fly again.

Give me hope and strength so that I may proclaim Your love by my life.
For You.
For You alone.

What a nice and fun day...glad to just...see friends, get some work done...get away from a lot of the stress...despite the fact I'm putting myself in a bit more.

I mean...there is...

Sometimes it may just be better to say nothing.
Biting my tongue is not a talent I have...but I think I have screwed up enough lives in recent memory...that it may be best to retreat for a while...pray, gather my thoughts...and hope solitude isn't where I will spend the rest of my life...