I sometimes wonder how often you think of me, if I ever cross your mind when you are out about in life. I wonder, do you ever think of me when you eat lunch by your window, getting to see the lives of people play out before them? Do I ever cross your mind when you go for a walk, hearing the birds sing their song to you? Could it be you think of me when you lay down to sleep at night, your beautiful mind awash from the days events?
It is a thing I am quite curious about, you see. I hold you in my highest regards and would not wish you ill, even when there is nothing to say.
It is funny to think we can live out our lives separate from each other, never knowing just what the other is thinking, maybe one of us hoping the other will say something. It is funny, right?
There really isn't to much more I can say that needs to be said, although less is indeed more it is not the same for all aspects and matters involving something as fickle as the heart.
Maybe an embrace awaits over the rainbows end.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Speaking of Marriage
I know I have my own bias towards Christian thought but something I just do not understand is why people outside of Christianity (or maybe some other religions) care about marriage. I know there is the fact it serves as a social construct but I just really can't break away from the notion that it is a bringing of a man and a woman together with God being the third and ultimate unifying factor.
Sex is in and of itself utterly bewildering and makes me feel uncomfortable but regardless it is a slight fundamental part of life. However, marriage is more then sex just as love itself is much more then sexuality. Marriage is supposed to be a unification of two distinct souls, bodies and minds into this covenant of one.
Spirituality and sexuality are hopeless intertwined because of them both being undeniable aspects of the human existence. Trying to say one is more important then the other is like trying to say water is more vital then food, in a sense there should be priority but at the same time if you focus only on one you will starve yourself from normalcy.
Being human is confusing, sexuality even more so, all the same there is still something very beautiful about the whole thing. Anyone who actually reads the Bible will notice that sexuality is flowing out of it like it was going out of style.
One of the most oddball things God does is express his love in relation to different forms of physical human relationships. He breaks things down in a simplified manner so we can at least try to fathom something otherwise incomprehensible. He says that he loves us like a father should love his children, Jesus mentioned wanting to gather together the lost like a mother hen would gather her chicks, Paul wrote that a wife should submit to her husband and the husband should love his wife with complete selflessness just as how Jesus loved and died for the church.
Spirituality and sexuality yet again. The physical act of sex is supposed to be (hard to know something you have never experienced, thank God) a physical, mental and spiritual bonding experince. At the same time, the Bible uses similar terms to express how we intimately know God. Yes, I am aware of how insane that sounds.
Through the Old Testament God would refer to the Israelites worshiping idols and turning from him as them committing not idolatry but adultery. Assuming I am following this correctly Yahweh was wanting to teach that it is not the little clay statues that matter, it's the fact that they were turning their back on a love relationship that was supposed to be as vital to them as air is to life.
I know I will be branded a heretic and a 'dirty liberal' for saying this but bottom line the reason I know Christianity is true is because of the indescribable intimacy of the spirit. I can assume that knowing Yahweh through his spirit is similar to the effects of knowing ones spouse in a somewhat sexual sense. There at least to me appears to be some kind of innate connection, something deeper then the pure physical.
Personally, I think that is what most people miss. Yahweh didn't create the universe, the heavens and us to simply sit around and wait for him to come wash our feet (although he has), he made us to live life and not to expect to have answers for everything.
Living in this Hell of a planet sucks. There is good but there is much bad too. When you have millions of people dying of malnutrition, people having to abuse drugs and alcohol just to cope with life, people running about confused and thinking they do not deserve to live life...do I need to go on?
There is a horrifying aspect to life that one can't deny but all the same there is something vastly beautiful. The intimacy we all desire and dream about will never be attainable through flawed and broken people. No human being will ever fix our broken hearts but there is something much more then us.
The way I look at it, I'm either insane or there is a loving God. How many insane people do you know constantly scrutinize their own personal sanity?
Sex is in and of itself utterly bewildering and makes me feel uncomfortable but regardless it is a slight fundamental part of life. However, marriage is more then sex just as love itself is much more then sexuality. Marriage is supposed to be a unification of two distinct souls, bodies and minds into this covenant of one.
Spirituality and sexuality are hopeless intertwined because of them both being undeniable aspects of the human existence. Trying to say one is more important then the other is like trying to say water is more vital then food, in a sense there should be priority but at the same time if you focus only on one you will starve yourself from normalcy.
Being human is confusing, sexuality even more so, all the same there is still something very beautiful about the whole thing. Anyone who actually reads the Bible will notice that sexuality is flowing out of it like it was going out of style.
One of the most oddball things God does is express his love in relation to different forms of physical human relationships. He breaks things down in a simplified manner so we can at least try to fathom something otherwise incomprehensible. He says that he loves us like a father should love his children, Jesus mentioned wanting to gather together the lost like a mother hen would gather her chicks, Paul wrote that a wife should submit to her husband and the husband should love his wife with complete selflessness just as how Jesus loved and died for the church.
Spirituality and sexuality yet again. The physical act of sex is supposed to be (hard to know something you have never experienced, thank God) a physical, mental and spiritual bonding experince. At the same time, the Bible uses similar terms to express how we intimately know God. Yes, I am aware of how insane that sounds.
Through the Old Testament God would refer to the Israelites worshiping idols and turning from him as them committing not idolatry but adultery. Assuming I am following this correctly Yahweh was wanting to teach that it is not the little clay statues that matter, it's the fact that they were turning their back on a love relationship that was supposed to be as vital to them as air is to life.
I know I will be branded a heretic and a 'dirty liberal' for saying this but bottom line the reason I know Christianity is true is because of the indescribable intimacy of the spirit. I can assume that knowing Yahweh through his spirit is similar to the effects of knowing ones spouse in a somewhat sexual sense. There at least to me appears to be some kind of innate connection, something deeper then the pure physical.
Personally, I think that is what most people miss. Yahweh didn't create the universe, the heavens and us to simply sit around and wait for him to come wash our feet (although he has), he made us to live life and not to expect to have answers for everything.
Living in this Hell of a planet sucks. There is good but there is much bad too. When you have millions of people dying of malnutrition, people having to abuse drugs and alcohol just to cope with life, people running about confused and thinking they do not deserve to live life...do I need to go on?
There is a horrifying aspect to life that one can't deny but all the same there is something vastly beautiful. The intimacy we all desire and dream about will never be attainable through flawed and broken people. No human being will ever fix our broken hearts but there is something much more then us.
The way I look at it, I'm either insane or there is a loving God. How many insane people do you know constantly scrutinize their own personal sanity?
Random Three AM Thought:
Sleep is good yet a distant function.
I however realized something, that being that one of the attraction factors that has been going through my mind, at least subconsciously, if that I am really attracted to domestic skills and qualities. I'm to tired to care about offending feminists so all political correctness aside; I just think it is quite amazing to see a woman that knows what she is doing around a kitchen, decorating a room, creating something out of nothing and the rest of that jazz.
It goes completely against my desires to 'run off and join the circus' but I think I really need that balance. Sure, it would be nice to be able to finally find a legitimate artistic means of expression that would entail travel but without having someone that was firmly grounded in reality it would be a disaster waiting to happen for me.
I however realized something, that being that one of the attraction factors that has been going through my mind, at least subconsciously, if that I am really attracted to domestic skills and qualities. I'm to tired to care about offending feminists so all political correctness aside; I just think it is quite amazing to see a woman that knows what she is doing around a kitchen, decorating a room, creating something out of nothing and the rest of that jazz.
It goes completely against my desires to 'run off and join the circus' but I think I really need that balance. Sure, it would be nice to be able to finally find a legitimate artistic means of expression that would entail travel but without having someone that was firmly grounded in reality it would be a disaster waiting to happen for me.
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