Song of Songs 2

"Catch all the foxes,
those little foxes,
before they ruin the vineyard of love,
for the grapevines are blossoming!"
-Song of Songs 2:15

Since 'Song of Songs' is right after 'Ecclesiastes' it seemed to make sense to just read into that, since I haven't touched some of the wisdom/poetry books in a couple of years.

I don't understand people.
I've sort of come to the understanding that I don't understand and that may be for the best.

I have accepted I live in another world altogether...a world of anticipating the Coming Age, the fading away of illness and pain, the death of death...and the hope that my Love will return and right this broken world.

Song of Songs is weird in that it encapsulates so much of the paradox and duality in life...male and female, temporal and eternal, God and man, the divine and creation...this love poem of a broken king and broken servant girl.

The thing I have learned most about people, relationships and family...is no one is perfect, no one has their act together and on the best of days we are just smiling and trying to just survive...

So it's okay.
It's not okay to accept failure and give up...but it is okay that eventually bad things will happen.
Promises will be broken.
Lovers will be hurt.
Lies will happen.
Sin is death and sin is at all of our doorsteps.

Nothing can excuse sin but grace can forgive it and make having to face the consequences more bearable.

I hate those stupid little foxes.
They are the small problems that sneak in and nip at the roots of life, the small pains that grow if they are ignored...

It feels like so much of my life revolves around having to beat them off and just try and find a moment to rest, to breath...to leave this insanity.

I just...
I'm tired and know there is hope, know there is a reason and will be okay...this isn't the end...it's just hard to hold on...hard to keep focus...

There is never a reason to despair and lose all hope...but sometimes it's a struggle not to.