Oh RP, are you Lonesome Tonight?

I think, think, think I am feeling better.
Am a bit sad I can't join my old Faction mates from The Matrix Online, on The Old Republic, but I'll live.

That would require the game, monthly payments and odds are a new gaming rig...far too much for my tiny budget right now.

I miss the stories, the constant story making process and being able to create on the fly.

That is what I love about Tabletop RPG's but there is something about the MMO that makes it easier to let go and make a character as a character. You aren't limited by your physical abilities of making sound, voices and movements...but can narrate and make what is really in your mind.

I miss playing Ninten and Lord Squishy so much.
I think both can fit into the Star Wars universe but if they can, it can wait.
Either someone is going to have to be a digital Sugar Daddy for me and buy me the game and help with getting the hardware or I'm going to have to treat this like my PlayStation 3 and save, save, save, save and hope for the best.

Regardless, I'll live without that particular avenue of story outlet.
World of Warcraft is something I only miss because it involved one of the most amazing people in the world and I happened to meet her via the game. It's strange how the digital world can sometimes lead to life changing experiences in this flesh and blood one.

Part of me wants to dive back into Azeroth, or maybe Middle-Earth.
Just to be able to let go of the current stressers I have and focus on story.
At this point most of the fanatical people will be moved on from the lowbie areas I have come to live in.

Well...just a thought.
I'm going to keep missing the old times in those games like I do rocking out with Forged in the Fire and Forgotten Purpose.
It's memories.
Neither bad nor good by themselves.
And I have the most important friendships and love from those times in my heart.
Which I will never forget.
And carry with me from now until eternity.
Where Love will be made complete.



Also, why did I have the weird dream about RP and The Old Republic?
Strange.
I miss those Mxo people too much...