Why was I so stupid and gullible to trust her in the first place?
I don't need a reminder of a few days, a few weeks, a few months...what I was thinking and doing an exact year ago...

Chasing after fantasies and mist...running after a rainbow that was never there...not even finding gold...but just realizing how naive, how trusting and how STUPID I am.

That sort of brings all those thoughts nicely together.
I let myself get used by emotional and mental leeches.
When I should just carry around a box of matches and when one of them touches me I could set fire to them.

Possibly, the hint may be taken.
Although I doubt the intelligence runs that high.