Psalm 88

"O Lord, God of my salvation,
I cry out to you by day.
I come to you at night.
Now hear my prayer;
listen to my cry.
For my life is full of troubles,
and death draws near."
-Psalm 88:1-3


I have known such miseries...frail health, sickness, pain, fear of death...so much darkness that I easily become lost in my mind. These tunnels leading downward into further darkness...and yet, you have never left me here.

Patiently you have seeked after me, love me...cared for me in ways I never knew I needed...and showered me with love, such infinitely impossible love...and beauty beyond my comprehension.

Time is so finitely fleeting...one moment to moment...and the beauty I have felt, seen, experienced may be gone in a minute...just like the plant who sheltered Jonah...yet I do not wish to be so short sighted.

You have called me out of this darkness to be loved and share love...thank you.
Thank you for being in love with me, forgiving my many failures and never leaving me in this darkness.

Beauty, such eternal beauty.
Calls me out of the depths
and despite my depravity
there is such infinite grace.