Getting A Bit Better

Can looking myself in the mirror, staring deep and trying to honestly find myself lead to the bigger problems being fixed?

Directly no.

That is an impossible thought.

But taking the time to realize who I am and sincerely where I stand in the world, taking realistic and healthy looks at myself will only lead to the potential for positive changes.

The problems we face...easier to just use the word sin...all of it is caused by pride on some level or another...pride in thinking we are the ones who are in control, we own our bodies, we can control others, we can use others, we can blindly act without regard to others...this crazy notion that we shape our own destiny and that we are the ones who are central to the story of life.

It is sort of spitting reality in the face...this lie of thinking we are more important...which sort of flies in the face of humility and love.

Honestly, if there there is no difference in morality then why even bother trying to have a point in the first place?

If all of this is absolutely relative and simply based upon preference then there is no sincerity, no love and no real purpose in anything.

Even pleasure has no meaning because there has to be a measure of which can be judged good and pleasurable...life just becomes useless rubbish with no meaning.


That could be a sincere and healthy dose of reality...the actual possibility of no hope, no love, no God, no goodness and just the idea of us all being a random accident.

That is a possibility but at the same time any attempt for someone to force their belief is null and void because they have no right to claim superiority.


But what would that even matter?


Hypothetical thought only does so much when you have had truth standing next to you and touching your heart, breaking you and brining you back to life.

What is the point of truth if you choose to ignore it?

Facts can't save humanity, only action and decision to move past our inflated egos and embrace love...can have any real change...and not just love...but sincere and infinite love offered only by the one bigger than all.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm only half alive...because I'm ignoring the truth I've found and felt...ignoring real love that goes beyond my inability to cope with people...I mean...just ignoring truth and the fact I'm broken and am frail but I'm not hopeless...that no one is hopeless...that we all deserve and should be loved...ignoring the fact that if I stopped long enough I can be loved and brought closer to the end of this life but one step closer to absolute truth, reality beyond reality...hope beyond hope.