Ecclesiastes 11

"Young people,it’s wonderful to be young! Enjoy every minute of it. Do everything you want to do; take it all in. But remember that you must give an account to God for everything you do. So refuse to worry, and keep your body healthy. But remember that youth, with a whole life before you, is meaningless."
-Ecclesiastes 11:9-10

So much random disorder, chaos, confusion and doubt...

The chance to live, to breath, to experience...to live and fail...to love and hurt, to see and feel...

Responsibility, ultimate responsibility for every choice...to bring Heaven or Hell to a reality to this world, to the home I build and make for those around me...showing good and evil...becoming more Holy or Hellish in every little choice that adds up to the sum of the eternal...

And grace, so much grace to be given and that carries and smooths over all the roughness, the fear and doubt.

I'm finite but surrounded, plunged into the infinite with so much love...and grace that doesn't make any sense...but that is okay...

It's okay my mind and soul can't comprehend because all of this great learning has brought sorrow upon me and so much doubt...but there is hope.

Wonderful, beautiful, deep, impossible hope that goes beyond my own ability to grasp and understand at all.


The Love, the eternal grace goes beyond the temporal...the now and points to something much bigger, much grander and more beautiful than I can properly grasp.

Sometimes...it's a wonder to be lost and not know everything.