Sometimes...I simply have to wonder at how blazenly stupid I can be.

I think I may have just coined a new phrase with blazen.

Oie.

Why do I bother with such pointless and meaningless gestures and words when none of it will ever be returned in the slightest?

Plus side...maybe I'm getting better and the pressure and gunk in my chest will leave sooner than later.

So exhausted, so all over the place...so drained.

I wish my soul, heart and mind were lest apt to care...much less over such stupid and trivial means...