Galatians 6

"As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ. Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world’s interest in me has also died. It doesn’t matter whether we have been circumcised or not. What counts is whether we have been transformed into a new creation."
-Galatians 6:14-15

This cross...is it my pain?
The weight on my spine and the shortness of breath?
It feels like everyday the sickness grows.
Tendrils wrapping around my soul and I try to breath.

Tendrils of pain.
God I just need to see again.
Can you open my eyes so I see, open my soul so I can feel?

I don't want this world.
I don't want the religious rules.
I need, I want to feel Your love so I can pass it on.

Is it possible that you still have a purpose for me when I feel so lost, so scared, so uncertain and not even knowing what the next step is?
Is it possible for you to forgive me more than seventy times seven, for you to find me laying in this gutter of self hate and disgust?

Thank you for the cross.
Thank you for the agony you endured for my sins.
Thank you for always loving me.
Thank you for finding me, holding me and carrying me.



"And everyone cries out Your name, as the world is raped by selfishness
And no one knows the way to heaven, we only know the emptiness
And the storm it rages in my heart, and the endless empty roars in my ears
My world is coming all apart, I've no strength left to dry my tears
And through it all I hear Your voice, breaking my heart, breaking my will
Calms the storm inside my soul as You whisper "peace, be still..."

You place Your hands around my heart, You quiet the emptiness in me
A king that kneels, a God made a servant, You set the captives free
You wait for me, a wretch of a man, no record of wrongs do You keep
You are comfort when I mourn, You are strength when I am weak
Jesus Christ, the king of kings
Though we ache, though we cry, never break, never die
We sing of His great love again and again
And His love reigns forever, and forevermore
Forever and ever, Amen"