Psalm 112

"Praise the Lord!
How joyful are those who fear the Lord
and delight in obeying his commands."

"The wicked will see this and be infuriated.
They will grind their teeth in anger;
they will slink away, their hopes thwarted."
-Psalm 112:1,10


Fear...respect...love...cherish...so many thoughts about You...so many things...thoughts, contemplations...I'm not sure.

So many things I do not know...and just...

I need you.
So much.
I miss you.
I love you.
I need you.

I want to feel your presence, feel it in such a vivid and real manner that I can just let go...let go and be in your arms...fall in love again...and more than emotion feel your strength, the infinite nature of you that shakes me to the core and reminds me I am yours.

I just...I'm here.
Things have shifted and I am so confused and afloat...and I just want to know you more. I want to love you. I want to be loved by you.

Have I said the same words over and over enough?
This all feels so fake...I feel fake.
I just need you.