It feels like a slap in the face but I think God has been revealing to me just how shallow I am in all my relationships...how I am so mercenary, self-serving and self-seeking...

I still view people as a means to my own end...not as being beautiful, unique and wonderful creations of Father...I am so bitter and angry when plans don't go my way...why and when did I stop seeing the twists and turns of life being so breath taking beautiful?

I want a sense of wonder again...I want to see the unexpected as good...I want to see people as You do, I want to feel for them...love them like You do...

I want to no longer be so shallow but be deep...