I feel the need to break away from this...to shun my appetites for self destruction, the addiction of self...I see myself in eternity and know I am heading the right way but oh there is so much more...so much further to go...

Is it possible to honor Christ and hold onto money?
Property?
Possessions?

These are real questions...just as I feel real pacifism is...

I want to set a fire with these poor words, see it burn and hope I can walk into the night with You.

Heal me.
Cleanse me.
Fix me.

Teach me please.
...and send me.