Thankful

I could write about the negative...but the plus is I have a bed that is warm, a lovable psychotic cat that is sleeping on my arm right now, a glass full of the red flavor Gatorade, air conditioner to keep my room cold enough for me to sleep, a laptop that works, Internet that mostly works, I have all of my limbs and digits, I still have all of my hair, I may be in an an excruciating amount of pain but I am still alive, I may feel alone but I'm not.

I am my Love's and Jesus loves me with a deep, amazing, intoxicating love that has carried me so far...I'm so...unworthy, hurting, afraid but loved.

I'm afraid of pushing the ones I want to love away...help me please. I don't want to become my dad...I don't want to live in the past, I don't want to be anything except one who loves and will sacrifice to share Your love.

Thank you for carrying me this far...please make this new day be new...with Your love.