I, being possessed up such ridiculous scorn and a mind which remembers countless acts I have perceived as disrespect and hurt, have such a struggle with forgiving and not seeing actions for being what they are...as opposed to what I perceive them as.

I have...I can very easily feel overwhelmed and let things build up...which is what I'm trying to fix. I don't like the feeling of things being against me...and I strive so hard to avoid contact with people who cause my anxiety to sky rocket...and I just...it's just...

The solution is escape, not escapism.

I need Light to see by...Love to feel by and...and...fill in the rest.

Please.