It feels like my physical weaknesses coupled with mental fatigue and my weakness just fucks everything up beyond belief.

God, I just hate myself sometimes.

I know it's not as bad as it feels...but it feels like the only decision I can make at the moment is going to upset someone...and I can't help but care about that because of how much it hurts to feel pain...others...and I just...can't process this just right now. I just want to make the right decision for once and make the pain stop.