Day 1

"Oh,the joys of those who do not follow the advice of the wicked, or stand around with sinners, or join in with mockers."
-Psalm 1:1

Joy seems to be so fleeting, I know it is supposed to be this lasting uplifting thing but at the end of the day the world seems more darker then lighter.

My body, my flesh, my being demands and desires so much that is screwed up...it's just like my spirit is screaming for help while in this body. It screams for help because of fears of being tainted by this condition but that is all wrong.

You made both body and spirit and both are good. All the evil can be summed up in overindulgence and abusing your body because of addiction.

I would like to find genuine joy and peace in and with you. I would love to be wrapped in your arms and held tightly, reminded that I am okay the way I am, that you do not hate me for who I am, that you love me, honestly love me more then I can understand.