Saturday, February 12, 2011

Sometimes...I simply have to wonder at how blazenly stupid I can be.

I think I may have just coined a new phrase with blazen.

Oie.

Why do I bother with such pointless and meaningless gestures and words when none of it will ever be returned in the slightest?

Plus side...maybe I'm getting better and the pressure and gunk in my chest will leave sooner than later.

So exhausted, so all over the place...so drained.

I wish my soul, heart and mind were lest apt to care...much less over such stupid and trivial means...
"Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I've found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it"