I sometimes wonder if it is silly...silly that I want to learn to love others with the same reckless abandonment of Jesus.

Even those who have caused damage to my soul.
Even those who hurt my beloved.
Even those who prey on the innocent.

Those who I judge as being inferior and unworthy of love are the ones I want to learn how to love the most because Jesus died for them just as much as he did for me...and loves them, even though they may never hope to believe he does.

What little I understand...that I can grasp...I am fumbling and dropping the ball, failing and making mistakes...I am on the right path...I have forgot what peace beyond understanding is like.

Everything, yeah everything...it's going to be okay.
Peace in this eternity.

"How long can I listen to the lies of prejudice?
How long can I stay drunk on fear out in the wilderness?
Can I cast it aside, all this loyalty and this pride?
Will I ever learn that there'll be no peace, that the war won't cease
Until He returns?"

Hrmm...I dare say some people are making it their mission to ensure I fail at this whole pacifism thing...