I do not understand the purpose of drinking alcohol or even smoking for that matter.
Why is beer legal and cocaine illegal?
Both are incredibly stupid means of accomplishing nothing except hurting people.

But what do I know?

I just wish people would be nice to each other and I could actually find sleep at night.

"Sometimes I feel like I don't know
Sometimes I feel like checking out
I wanna get it wrong
Can't always be strong
And love it won't be long"

Psalm 100

"Acknowledge that the Lord is God!
He made us, and we are his.
We are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
Enter his gates with thanksgiving;
go into his courts with praise.
Give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the Lord is good.
His unfailing love continues forever,
and his faithfulness continues to each generation."
-Psalm 100:3-5


Safe...certainly not...yet you are good, oh so wonderful...beautiful beyond my simple mind and lack of understanding.

I keep running, keep fleeing in the other direction...from you, from your love...from your grace...from everything good that you have given me...and you patiently come to me...hold me, love me, treasure me...and tell me again and again that I am yours, that you love me, that you will never leave or forsake me...

It always makes me want to cry in shame.
For not being good enough.
For being too dirty to be loved.

But still...you persist, you wipe away my tears and tell me I am beautiful, that I can be whole...that I can become a son...and just...

What can I say to that?
To this holiness?
To this goodness?
What words can I offer to you?
My tongue is lame and dead
I am struck dumb
and I just can hope you love me all the same.

Thank you, thank you.
Oh Lover of my soul
thank you for this grace.
Thank you for friends, family
and given me my beloved.

Thank you for such constant love and grace
how can I ever say thank you enough?
Even in the times of my body and soul
being wracked with pain
You have never left my side,
my glorious and beautiful one
thank you.

"We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight."