Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Social drama?

Not to fear!

I'll just narcotize myself with video games, mountain dew and tea...yes...THAT will fix everything.

Now...to get my sarcasm button unstuck...
One of the manifold problems of attempting to play hero all the time is that you end up in a position where...oh it's just silly to say it...or try anything...or do...

It is just...

It is life.

I think I am stuck there with that thought.

God I hate feeling sick...I hate feeling as well...
*sighs*

Fine.

I'm a Ravenclaw.

I'll give up fighting it already.

Stupid know it all Sorting Hats... ~_~

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Proverbs 26

"Smooth[a] words may hide a wicked heart,
just as a pretty glaze covers a clay pot.

People may cover their hatred with pleasant words,
but they’re deceiving you.
They pretend to be kind, but don’t believe them.
Their hearts are full of many evils.
While their hatred may be concealed by trickery,
their wrongdoing will be exposed in public."
-Proverbs 26:23-26

What is the point of my many words?
Slippery slopes of sin, malevolent tapestries woven will such ill intention...
...and what shall I do?
What can I do?

All of these circles, all of this pain...

How can I know who to trust?
It feels as if...exposing myself to any at all is foolhardy because I know how it will end...

Not today or tomorrow...but so few things can last long through time...


Even with all of my doubts and sins piled so high, I pray for grace, forgiveness...hope...you know?

Hope that my failures, my mistakes will not define me from here and throughout eternity...hope I can be washed clean, made new and so I can become more of who you made me to be...

So much hope, so much beauty, so much of everything...it is overwhelming.
I don't want to lie to people, lead them on...treat them like I have been in the past...

It is so easy to hide within pain and shame...but what can I do?
How can I grow and be an adult?

Father, Lover, Lord, King, Master...so many titles, so many ways of expressing You and yet none are sufficient...so many ways, so many ways...

Take my hand, take my life and never let me walk away.
Never let me loose hope in waiting,
renew me everyday so I can breath.
Put a new life in this shell
and teach me how to sing.

Carry me away
to distant lands
and unknown shores.

Renew me
and please never remove Your Holy Spirit from me.
The last thing I deserve is comfort
or peace
but I throw myself before this throne
not know what else to do
except pray,
pray for hope everlasting
and love overflowing.
So both Insane Clown Posse and Owl City have come out of the closet about being Christians.

What's next?

Daft Punk and Slipknot recording a worship album with U2?