"Who waits forever anyway?"

...I do actually.
Just saying.

It is infuriatingly frustrating that every time I think I have 'grown up' I manage to find a way to proving to myself that I have years left before I even reach that point...

Ack.

Why must the soul be so quick to taint and so slow to learn?

I suppose there is a reason...I'm just too tired to really formulate much thought on it right now...

A drop of water in this desert...

Psalm 97

"You who love the Lord, hate evil!
He protects the lives of his godly people
and rescues them from the power of the wicked.
Light shines on the godly,
and joy on those whose hearts are right.
May all who are godly rejoice in the Lord
and praise his holy name!"
-Psalm 97:10-12

Fear, praise...hope and hating of this darkness within me and in this world...
My heart is so cold and like stone so often...certain things will never pierce me or convict me...please break me so I will always have compassion for the poor, the broken, the addicted, the hopeless...those who need you most.

Even when they have hurt me so bad.

Teach me to have compassion...to protect myself and my beloved...but to still be faithful to your commands to love to the very end...

Joy, hope, grace, forgiveness...reality...truth...

Love, such burning and pure love which enters my soul and refuses to be content with just occupying the first chamber...but demands all of me...mind, body and soul...help me surrender to the flames of your passion, of your desire for union for us...and for me to forgive and be forgiven...oh grace...grace...grace...

Meh, I can't believe how whiny I am when I am so sleepy.
Ack. >_< I have half a mind to travel back in time and slap myself.

Oh well...I feel better...I just wish I wasn't so nauseated and dizzy...you can't win them all...so thank you for letting me be alive Daddy. ^_^