Hope still remains.

No matter what you do to try and murder it, your plans will never succeed. All your workings, every last part of your fragile attempts at destruction will fail.

Love will prevail through this night, born on wings of hope and the ability to smile even in the darkest of nights.

Preface

My center of balance is off and it feels like falling, it feels like failing and while you can watch for free, the only price is my raising pain.

I never intended to be on display but while we're on the subject I might as well continue this freak show the best way I know how, self deprecation and prayers that just maybe things will end soon enough.

I live in my own world.
The realm I constructed from me being and acting as such a parasite upon imagination.
Nothing feels real, just as you never did.
I wouldn't know truth any better than the lies I hold so dear.
Everything passes in various shades of gray, as I hope for something more.

Is everything damned into the place of fear?
I want to know truth.
I want to know what I can trust.
How long until Love is all that remains?

I'm tired of life, I would quit if I could.
Just let go and be free of being so tired and fake.
Why is it I make such stupid choices in life?
Why can't I just bite my tongue and let things die?

I do not want to resign myself, regulate myself in this box.
All I want is all I want and all I want is to breath.
I just want to live without fear.
Is it too much to ask for life and to laugh?
Is it too inconceivable that I tire of games and perpetual pain?

I want to run,
just run into the arms
of the love
of the Divine Lover
and the only One who knows
and will know this broken soul.
Trembling hands
and a broken soul
and a resigned sigh
of not knowing
this way
and path.

Really, this is me.
Are you so surprised?
I am.
Enough to break this mirror and walk away.

"And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need"