"What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way"

Awake...?

Mostly replied to emails I got...if I missed you email me again please.
So...so...tired and sore.

Have been napping since I got in.

I do not recall much of last night.

There was some Taco Bell and tea.

They took me to a LARP that was a vampire theme.
It was actually enjoyable and I saw some incredibly nice people who were awesome actors. Don't know if I would ever do something like this because of my lack of acting skills...much more confident in the table top and online RPG RP'ing.

Coming back it was raining on the snow so I slipped and landed perfectly on my back. Still hurting bad.

Need sleep...but more than that rest.




I wish I had a church I could go to...that felt like home.
Some place I'm longing for but have never really...ever seen.

I escaped and came here to...leave it behind...all the thoughts and fears and doubts...but somehow they followed me up I-65. Somehow I am still imperfect even though I keep breaking my back on my self perfected ways...

My heart and mind are still...

Home...*sigh*

"And I know it aches, how your heart it breaks
You can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home, hard to know what it is if you've never had one.
Home, I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home,
that's where the hurt is.

And I know it aches and your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on

Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind"