"Sing Me to Sleep" - Showbread

Being wished that I would just go lay in a grave always helps.

"Spartan" - Five Iron Frenzy

Billie Holiday on the radio
my sluggish heart is beating seven beats too slow
another sad song and another shot of blue
cold and unconcerned are anything but new
He said “Love endures all things”
and it hurts to think He’s right
If I mark the span of failure
is his burden just as light?

I am, Spartan
close my heart so tight
Jesus
Save me
from myself tonight

Limping through the world
there’s a knowing look or two
is it just the cripples here
who understand the truth?
Why is love so painful
why do we always lose
paving pathways for the lost
the bitter, and recluse?
He said “Love endures all things”
and it hurts to think it’s true
did it nail Him on a cross
did it crucify Him too?

I am, Spartan
close my heart so tight
Jesus
Save me
from myself tonight

The angels are singing over the plains
the shepherds are quaking, echoing refrains
And all of our slogans designed to take away the pain
meant nothing to the Son of God that night in Bethlehem

I, being possessed up such ridiculous scorn and a mind which remembers countless acts I have perceived as disrespect and hurt, have such a struggle with forgiving and not seeing actions for being what they are...as opposed to what I perceive them as.

I have...I can very easily feel overwhelmed and let things build up...which is what I'm trying to fix. I don't like the feeling of things being against me...and I strive so hard to avoid contact with people who cause my anxiety to sky rocket...and I just...it's just...

The solution is escape, not escapism.

I need Light to see by...Love to feel by and...and...fill in the rest.

Please.

Teach me love...I'm weak because all I feel right now...is a lot of anger and resentment.

Anger.

My hands ache from guitar...it's a nice feeling but it makes it hard to type...haha...wow.

It's...so strange to see mirrors...especially of the...spiritual kind. It has been so long that I almost didn't recognize it when I saw one...hmm...must press deeper into thought and try to understand...

More clarity and honest evaluation...odd but funny thoughts...

Mind so tired...maybe I do need sleep...after all...

"Farewell to Arms" - Five Iron Frenzy

You said, "Down with the church",
with your fists up in the air,
all the rancor and the hate,
yeah we saw your frigid stare.
You hate Christianity, but love your animosity,
it's the church who's getting rotten,
yet it's Christ that you've forgotten.

Goodnight, goodbye, farewell to arms, it's time.
Lay down your hate,
(the burden and) the weight will disappear.
If you could separate your anger,
from that still small voice you hear.

Clench your fists and grit your teeth,
save forgiveness for the weak.
Let your bitterness consume,
let the salt rub in your wounds.
You have saved up all your spite,
stoked the flame that keeps the fight,
it's so hard to be objective,
when your reason is defective.

Goodnight, goodbye, farewell to arms, it's time.
Lay down your hate,
(the burden and) the weight will disappear.
If you could separate your anger,
from that still small voice you hear.

You say that you've aged, I think you're just enraged.

Goodnight, goodbye, farewell to arms, it's time.
Who incited, what ignited, all this hatred?
Say farewell to arms.
Broken hearted, dearly departed,
maybe we should say farewell to arms.

Does anyone else remember a time when Mozilla Firefox was vastly superior to Internet Explorer?

Does anyone else remember when Mozilla did not consist of so much suck?

I miss those days and I'm so sick of Mozilla hogging all of my ram and crashing itself or my computer.

Bah.

If this keeps up I will code my own browser and made it 8-bit themed.

Pleasant.